you can cut stars.

1. Am I the only one who is not very happy about the plate change? Yeah, it's more realistic to change it, but I love that Kansas plate.
2. And am I the only one who is amused at Sam's "No no no, come pick me up first."?
3. I never figured Dean's soulmate to be a Carmen. Or maybe I'm just plain jealous.
4. The moment that door opened, I just started crying. Dean with that incredulous look, his suspicions, then relief and joy and wonder.
5. The photos. Oh the photos. Some looked so obviously photoshopped, but still. The Winchesters.
6. "He died in his sleep. You know that." "That's great."
7. "Who would have thought, baby, we're civilians." But of course the Impala itself is still there.
8. Dean still loves food.
9. Ooh, he works in John's garage!
10. HAHAHA. He looks so happy mowing the lawn. White picket fences. Garden gnomes. Weird Neighbors.
11. Erm, the crazy Dean/Jess shipper in me is ridiculously happy.
12. That absurdly proud smile when Sam announces the engagement.
13. In what universe is Sam and Dean not close?! Oh yeah, this one. *sobs* "We should go sometime. I think you'd be great at it (hunting)."
14. "I'm dating a nurse. That is so... respectable."
15. "But why? Why is my job to save those people? What do I have to be some kind of hero?" When Dean cries, we cry.
16. Pilot parallel! "That was so easy, I'm embarrassed for you."
17. "Why are you doing this?" "Because you're still my brother." "Bitch." "What are you calling me a bitch for?" "You're supposed to say jerk." This is me crying and laughing at the same time.
18. Oh Dean. It's so tempting, isn't it.
19. Sammy's being strangled again.
20. "It's not fair, and it hurts like hell, but it's worth it."


I just randomly started crying at perfectly random parts. It was embarrassing. I was so glad that I was all alone at home. It's just Jensen. Why oh why does he have to be so perfect? His expressions, his little reactions, like that stunned look and the slight flinch when his mother first reached at for him, the hurt when he realized he wasn't close to Sam, the desperation when he was talking to his father's grave, all perfect. Pitch perfect.

And it felt so good to see Dean all angsty again. His silly and ridiculous antics were fun, but it was getting old. Jensen is definitely at his best in emotional scenes. Actually, the show itself is at its best with emotional episodes. The past few episodes were fun, but the emotional stuff is what draws me in. Such a wonderful episode. I'm still upset that Jeffrey Dean Morgan wasn't in it, but Adrianne Palicki and Samantha Smith more than made it up.

I really feel awful for Dean though. He's constantly tempted by the dark side, the first time by the demon in Crossroad Blues and now here. I could only imagine how hard it is for him to resist, but he does it anyway. In the end, he always does the right thing. Ah, the reluctant hero. Part of me wants to think he came back for Sam. If he couldn't wake from his dream state, Sam would be left alone in the real world. And I adore that last exchange between the brother, Sam trying to convince his brother that it was all worth it. For someone who loves the job so much 2 years ago and has been at it his entire life, Dean is getting tired, and he really needed that conversation to pull himself up, that recognition that what he has been doing is noble. And it truly is. And Dean, stop breaking me.

One thing I'm really curious about is AU Dean, the one we never saw. Honestly, he sounds like a stupid drunken asshole who doesn't take care of his family like he should have. Sam's comment about "starting off Mom's birthday with a bang, as always", Mary's obvious surprise at Dean's sudden affection and "never mowed a lawn in your entire life" and a wary neighbor all point towards the negative. He's dating a nurse, which is, yes, respectable, but we all know chicks dig the bad boys. It's kinda terrifying to think of Dean as a hateful guy. We all love him so much.

In other words, I love this show. And my eyes are gonna be all puffy tomorrow. Damn.